The World Through my Son’s Eyes.

To Try to See the World through the Eyes of a Child. 

These days, my son is all over my husband. He wants to play with him, be close to him, watch and observe him to learn and ask one million questions. When I see them together, I can see the love in my son’s eyes. He just is not only looking at his Papa but he searches for the face of safety and familiarity, of love and warmth. He knows my husbands face from day one. My husband was the one who held petit Joel first while he opened his eyes slowly. It was perfection and the most wonderful thing in this world. My son! 

His tiny little voice in the morning when he wakes up and calls for Mama or Papa is so cute, even though I would love to curl up in my bed and sleep longer. Usually, he wakes up early after I had a long night of reading and writing – do these little guys do it on purpose sometimes? Who knows, they might unconsciously tell us to go to bed earlier. Amazing what I learn from my son on a daily basis. With little to no sleep at night, I wake up grumpy and while looking in the mirror and wash my face I see some soft tiny wrinkles that just begin to crease my face. My son does not see these around my face. He also does not see this one grey hair that I discovered a couple of days ago. He also does not see when my legs are unshaven. He does not see my imperfections and the way I sometimes critically see myself – these little flaws. All he sees is Mama, his everything. His Mama. 

I think it is amazing that this little person, this perfect child of ours just finds perfection all the time around him. The see this world in such a beautiful, simple and pure way. There is no time for judgement, for norms and rules or stereotypes. He lives on intuition and his heart is full of love and observes this world with his big eyes constantly. These eyes are accepting and open to all that he is able to become and to all this beauty in the world. I think this is an amazing inspiring, healthy and incredible way to look at life, no? If I see the world just for a moment each day through his eyes, everything would become so much more beautiful. I want to focus more on this perfection of every single day and everything around me – just the way it is. Even my tired eyes in the morning. These eyes that can smile and make my son happy. I want to see things more clearly and uncomplicated – like he does. 

So many things bother me and most are in hindsight just useless to even think or worry about. All these things don’t bother our son.  He is content and lives every single day to the fullest. I have to keep in mind that we do have each other, that I am working on loving myself unconditionally and that we have a ton of adventures and things to make ahead of us and most importantly we do have our health. 

And when my son wakes up tomorrow morning – ready to start the day but I am tired, I will put on an honest smile to be reminded how beautiful it is that he is simply here with us, healthy and the best thing in my life. My son.